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March 18, 2013

I find myself in a peculiar place these days.  My parents are like dealing with two 5-year olds.  Until about 15 years ago my relationship with my mother was one of the best of anyone I know.  We have always been friends and I knew my mother loved me and would take care of me.  I have always been able to talk to her about anything, no matter how personal or off the wall.  And that was true for most of my life, but not for many years now. My Dad and I have always had a very loving relationship and I could also talk to him about anything and that is still pretty much the case.  But things are very different now.

When my grandmother, her mother, died it was if she then had nowhere to put all her anger from being abused as a child.  She controlled it fairly well as long as she was active and able to travel and we didn’t notice much difference.  But then a medication that was supposed to help her glaucoma not only didn’t do that, but the steroid attacked her spine....

March 5, 2013

During my stay in Calama I met my cosmic son.  Ruth, a friend and yoga student, kept saying I needed to meet this young man who owns Gimnasio Ki, a gym and yoga studio.  She described Claudio as very spiritual and that he sees UFO’s out in the desert.  Finally, she took me to his place and the minute I laid eyes on him, I knew in my heart that he was a son of mine from another time and place that I had lost and now found again.  He also felt that I was his star mother.  We hugged for a long time and both cried.  In the years since that meeting, we have not spent much time together, but each meeting is special.  I gave him Reiki I,II, and III  and he has phenomenal energy for healing.  He says he is a Warrior for the Light and I know he is.  When I left Calama I thought our karma was finished, but I had the chance to be with him again in 2008 and the connection is as strong as ever.  He introduced me to Melchizidek’s books and the Merkaba.  I know that we have had 5 lifetimes together a...

March 5, 2013

Wow, how could I have let so much time pass since I blogged???  Once again my life took on a life of its own!

So, I left off in Tucson realizing that my decisions and my attitude about those decisions were creating turmoil in my life.  PYRT had taught me so much about myself and my shortcomings.  I needed to focus on my strengths and figure out how to be metaphysical and spiritual while living in the real world. 

I forgot to mention that when I first got back to Tucson I needed follow-ups on the meditation training and someone recommended a very wise fellow.  He had spent many years in the Transcendental Meditation society and had subsequently left.  He felt, as I had before learning in Peru, that the organization charged too much for this important modality.  He gave me my two follow-ups and charged me much less than the going rate.  But more than that, he taught me that it’s all right to charge less for something so important.  After getting myself established with yoga class...

October 25, 2010

MY LEAP INTO THE YOGA WORLD

Once we were settled in Tucson I looked for someplace to teach yoga.  I joined a local tennis club and they allowed me to start a class in their common room.  There were just a couple of ladies interested, but I didn’t care.  I wanted so badly to teach seniors and they were giving me the opportunity.  This class didn’t grow, but I was happy that somebody would sit in front of me and let me share what I knew.  I went to health clubs and asked if they needed a yoga/stretch teacher and eventually worked in several different places.  I was told at one club that they didn’t need a yoga teacher, but would I be interested in teaching water aerobics?  I wanted to work so badly that I said yes even though I’d never done one water aerobics class myself and taught 6 classes a week for the next 3 years.  I cannot tell you what fun it was to teach 30 seniors.  They were a hoot!  I wanted to have my own yoga classes and found a martial arts studio where I could teach in th...

October 25, 2010

In 1987 Russell was transferred and promoted to VP/GM of the company and we had to leave Ilo for Toquepala.  I had made such good friends and was having a great time and this was another difficult move for me.  The previous VP/GM’s wife had made Toquepala a very formal setting and I didn’t know how I was going to deal with that.  But as usual, I quickly adjusted and began life as mother hen to the women of all three of the company’s areas.  My adjustment was especially easy as Leah, the woman who came and went from Ilo, became my best friend.  I told her often that I felt as if she was the other half of me and she seemed to feel about the same.  She was also my right hand gal for organizing the social life that was my responsibility and we turned Toquepala into a really fun place to be. 

I was still kind of floundering around with the spirituality thing and at one point even messed around with an Ouija board.  We did successfully get information about all o...

June 2, 2010

I had the most amazing experience this morning while meditating.  I have been doing a system called The Healing Codes (www.thehealingcodes.com)for two months now that is supposed to get to the core of any health, emotional, or other issue causing problems.  It is based on quantum physics and all that.  I decided about a week ago to combine that with a humming meditation I do off and on.  The humming meditation itself is very relaxing and healing and I wanted to augment the Codes with a little chakra work.  So I’ve been humming along.  It’s very simple: I just start humming in as low a tone as I can and pay attention to where I feel a slight vibration in my body.  The tone will move up the scale by itself as needed to a higher tone settling on the chakra that needs attention or perhaps just moving up every few minutes until I have hummed through all the energy centers.  Sometimes the tone and vibration will settle in one energy center for the whole time I am meditating....

May 18, 2010

Whoa!  That wasn’t much fun.  I’m sure nobody ever likes to go back and look at their shortcomings.  But I needed to really take a look to see just how I got to feel so lowly in my adult life.  (And I am positive none of this was programmed into me by my parents.  Nor did my husband “do” this to me.  I allowed many things to happen because I was not strong enough to stop them.)  I’m pretty sure if any of the people who knew me in my early adult years would say that I was very confident.  I hid my insecurities well.  Somewhere in my psyche was the courage to jump into the void and put myself in situations that scared me or made me feel uncomfortable, like volunteering to be chairwoman of a committee or pulling together the ladies in Ilo into a functioning group.  But I felt as if I was doing life blindfolded.  I didn’t know where I was going or what I would do when I got there.  But I was determined to stick with it and so just did each day....

March 28, 2010

As I was reading some of the previous posts, I noticed that I left some blank spots about how I developed as a person.  I don’t have any traumatic stories to tell so it’s a little confusing to think that I had so little self-esteem after I reached my teens. 

I just remember bits and pieces, of course, of my very early childhood.  I know that I was loved very much and definitely “Daddy’s Girl”.  In pictures of me as a small child I was adorable—curly blond hair and a cute smile.  Up until about age 10 I felt completely normal and just like every other child.  My parents were strict, but didn’t use corporal punishment unless we’d done something really dangerous or lied.  My Dad was the one who administered and I adored him so did everything I could not to be in trouble.  My Mom took care of the normal kid stuff with a sharp whack on the arm with a prominent arthritic knuckle that stung so I didn’t want that very often either.  I had a very close and loving relationship with both my p...

March 5, 2010

Yesterday I started reading “Pleiadian Initiations of Light” and listening to the CD.  The information in the book and the meditations resonate with me to my core.  As I have an issue with my self esteem in spiritual matters and find it hard to believe I am capable, worthy, or advanced enough to actually be doing healing work, I went on about my day thinking, “we’ll see”. 

I woke up this morning at 5am, miffed to be awake so early so I decided to relax and repeat the mantra from the first initiation, I Am,  and perhaps go back to sleep.  As I lay there with my hand over my heart, musing that so many of us feel unworthy, this message came to me:

“We are like flowers in the garden of the God Source.  Each seed has the essence of the Source’s divinity.  We grow in many different shapes and colors, but all beautiful.  The Source doesn’t look down and decide that one flower is more important than another, more beautiful or more useful.  The Source sees all the flowers as equal....

January 23, 2010

The only way to achieve true happiness and peacefulness is to accept that we are responsible for creating our own reality.  It's hard!!!  But it's worth it.  Let God in by letting go of your fears and expectations.  I highly recommend Richard's book "Radical Spirituality". 

How To Practice Radical Spirituality 

In my book “Radical Spirituality” I end the volume with 69 reminders (note the yin/yang symbology and circle of energy in the number) that summarizes our spiritual evolutionary path:

1. Your earthly purpose is to cast away your fear-based emotions. Doing so creates an “absence,” leaving only your God-self to interact with the world.

2. Everything you think, say and do creates karma. And that includes the motive, intent and desire behind everything you think, say and do.

3. Karma is the basis of reality, which means you are totally responsible for everything that has ever happened to you.

4. It is your resistance to “what is” (unalterable reality) that causes your s...

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